Back when I was in the Christian mindset, serving the Lord had something to do submitting ourselves to the will of the Almighty God, whatever and whoever that might mean.

Life Processes, responsibilities. Throughout the course of each human's live we each have various responsibilities ("callings") that we are called to do to make life run smoother for ourselves and for others. When many people are young they don't want to be "saddled-down" with these responsibilities. Rather, they want to be free to do whatever they want.

This morning as I was reading an Internet article I came across this phrase

"Those under 40 tend to be like the student I quoted above. They have had some weird experience of Jesus that changed their life. They left behind aspiring careers in law or media or medicine or whatever and took up ministry, which promises far less money and social prestige, but far more satisfaction, both in this world and the next." 

"....moving at of pace that you feel comfortable with, whatever that is, might be faster than us, might be slower than us. It's about you - it's not about us. {as you continue with these exercises} Come back get a little bit better every time 

I feel like I am a damaged mixed up sojourner who is just struggling to make it through this life. I have been through so much that has caused me to be "different" than the normal that so many people seem to live in. Yet, I have no desire to be that kind of normal. Even though it is painful to be alone (yet I'm not truly alone) and to be different, to not have people understand, I like who I am and where I am in life. I would not change who I am for anything.

For years I have been searching, thinking, and writing of the many aspects of faith, life, and our place here on this earth. Having researched, visited, and tried many different churches along the way, we have been looking at different theological aspects of life and have come to understand and realize the value of people from all beliefs and all walks of life.